Tiziano Terzani (1938-2004) was an Italian journalist who lived for thirty years in Asia, where he worked as a war correspondent for several newspapers and magazines in Europe. He was also one of the writers and columnists most famous Italian contemporaries. Suffering from a terminal illness and seeing near the end of his life, decided to join his son Folco and hold long conversations with him that resulted in this book. The end is my beginning is an attempt, by Titian, to explain to his son who he is. How was his childhood, his youth .. and how, almost without intending it, became one of the best-known journalists of the twentieth century. But it is also an attempt to make him see how he sees life, how he understands the world after having lived through the Vietnam War, the Cold War, Mao's China, the South African apartheid .. and having been an eyewitness to many of the major historical events of the last fifty years. Of course, also speaks of journalism. Than he knew in his youth as a journalist, what it means to immerse in another culture to attempt to understand the origin of the conflict that she suffers and how it has changed the profession and how to deal with the world of those who work today as journalists. This is a book more than adequate to meet one of the most important contemporary personalities and to learn a lot about the world dejarmos back and, above all, we live today. In Egypt, Muslim mobs set fire to the January 19 households, businesses and churches of Coptic Christians shouting Allah is great. Police and firefighters intentionally delayed their arrival at the places where the attacks occurred. On 19 January, a Mohammedan mob attacked the Christian community-Rahmaniya Kebly, Qena province, shouting Allah is the greatest. During the fateful day the Muslims set fire to homes and businesses of Christians, shot and wounded a 16-years and were severely injured in the face of a man of 40, according to Asianews.it. Eyewitnesses say the corrupt Egyptian police would not intervene and that the fire deliberately, came when the buildings were in flames. In Kebly-Rahmaniya, a Christian property was burned to build a mosque on the site, although the town and there are 300 places of worship Hagrite while Christians have only one church, though representing 50% of the population of place. On the same date Salafists and moderate members of the association of the Muslim Brotherhood burst into a church in Abu Bathteem (Qaliubia) to show Christians that their new place of worship was illegal. During the assault a member of the Muslim Brotherhood said the 1,300 square meter building was perfect for building a mosque. The bishop, for safety reasons, has decided not to celebrate the first Mass in the brand new church, which has caused consternation among the congregation. These acts of intimidation by Salafists and Muslim Brothers have had as a reason to prevent the participation of Christians in the elections, especially in areas where the Coptic minority vote could be decisive. Christians make up 10% of the population of Egypt, but are considered third-class citizens and have always suffered recurrent persecution, except during the period of British rule. In the last thirty years more than 5,000 Copts have been killed for religious reasons, some 65,000 have fled in the early months of 2011, and the Islamist electoral victory is accelerating the exodus of Christians to the United States, Canada and Australia. Dear Rahola I read with interest the article kindly provided in La Vanguardia and I can not resist the answer, in pr .. The accident has led to cross two time decisions affecting the school, on the one hand, and the deputies autonomous, po .. Sure prosper, and the result would be something like: Catalonia became an independent state, as it is today Tunisia and Morocco .. In Buenos Aires a few doctors took the stomach of a 7 year old girl a huge ball of hair from 700 grams, Argentina newspapers reported … The youngest is in his body the fetus from her sister is developed, as could be seen on CT. In its first year of vid .. Goethe says in Poetry and Truth, that all his works are the product of a great confession, and referring to this statement, Ted Hughes adds that "perhaps all poetry, to the extent that moves us and connects us, is a revelation of something the writer does not really want to say, but desperately needs to communicate. "(2). But how do you talk about something that is painfully shut down in our unconscious? This is possible only through a sincere confession that is not afraid to venture into the realm of pain. The direction and depth of confession about a poetry scholar is not an issue. It is a vital question. I wrote a book of poems, South Pole (3), where I found myself compelled to express something that did not even know felt the need to communicate. Much has cost me understand the meaning of that work despite being its author. This work is an attempt to clarify what I meant by my subconscious. How did the story of this book? Towards the end of his days, I asked my father what he wanted birthday present. We sensed that time was short. He was silent. After a pause, he smiled as he thinks of something impossible. I thought you might like to know Corsica, where he was his grandfather, or perhaps return to Colombia, his native land. He warned me that the journey that he wanted to do was not within my ability to please. At my insistence, I found, with some candor, that he had always wanted to eyewitness travel books the South Pole. ¿The South Pole? Is Antarctica? Is that white spot is at the bottom of the globes? I asked puzzled. The answer left me puzzled. The reason is that, since childhood, he thought it was possible to go on a bongo by the rivers of America and reach Antarctica. He came from a time in which to conquer the South Pole was a feat so great to us would travel to the moon. This meant that my gift was suspended until I find a way to make the trip. The last year of my father's life happened very fast. He was alone in this journey of no return, and left me the heavy burden of a broken dream. He had made the dream of my father my delirium. He even bought a navigation map where are the rivers of America and I studied with a magnifying glass the unlikely journey. I spent months obsessed with that trip, until I understood that my duty was to find a voice to write that story. Since then the book has accompanied me. I could say it was a spiritual experience that allowed me to find in the life of my father the Muse of Memory. His childhood memories allowed the advent of the poem with all the mystery that involves recounting the experience of another. According to Assagioli, "Our staff is composed, in turn, minor or sub-personalities personalities. Mental health depends on the integration of sub-personalities in a harmonious unity" (4). I use this concept to explain the creative process of this book, with the voice of my father as one of my sub-personalities. This was one of the many blows of direction I received from my subconscious, forcing me to change my original intention to work with the story. I had to develop a story that was not tainted by my views on a world unknown. After writing the book was that it had questions about what it meant to me to make that trip chimerical. The first draft of a text book was narrated various stories that my father had told me concerning the events that had happened when she ran away from home at the age of ten years and was lost in the jungle. A review, I realized that was not what I wanted to write. That these stories is not enough. I had to write a story where the protagonist could conquer the South Pole and get your redemption. The intention popup South Pole was not writing a biography of my father, based on historical facts, nor romanticize his adventures. The major problem confronted in writing the book is that this was not a factual history. (5) Initially I felt a great frustration for not knowing tell this story with the fidelity of an eyewitness. How do you do if it was only a spectator of the dream of another? I discovered that, somehow, that dream was mine also. That although this trip was made in an imaginary plane, I was involved. That's why, to achieve my goals on this trip, I had to build an alternate history that answered the question: what would have happened if my father had been able to make the trip to the South Pole? As part of this question, did the setting of the book. Variables emerged that managed to transform the parameters of the original story. An alternate history is a discipline that imagine fictitious changes in the development of historical fact, creating an alternate reality. This journey through uncharted territory unveil ice inside ourselves. Thus began the process leading to disclose the fate of the character that started this expedition to the South Pole. This displacement of memory is an object of knowledge to be discovered. It is in this altered state of consciousness interior monologue allows the truth shine. At the time that my father confesses his desire to visit the South Pole, this trip begins to be part of my inner universe. I had to go into a journey that started from the Colombian Amazon jungle and came to Patagonia Argentina. At first, I could not structure the book because I wanted from the story. He saw clearly how the story should be told from the future. The difference between this location in time and narrative structure used is that a factual story is located in the present and an alternate history in the future. It is only from an alternate history that we can move the story forward and create change. From the viewpoint of the hero's journey, the protagonist who does not cross the portal is doomed to neurosis and self-denial (6). This category interpretive Hero's Journey I can see now. At that time, was a subconscious thing that led me to think about a protagonist who begins an odyssey to fulfill a task that he does not know. Initially the reason my father's trip was to find the lost mother. Sad to say, but he had been a victim of maternal abandonment, a fact that marked him for life. Mitigating circumstances were that still almost a child, my grandmother had been forced by her family to marry my grandfather, a man who had more than thirty years and had a terrible temper. This absence of the mother, forcing the player to start a spiritual crusade that involves a daunting trip: "I worked in the mines / tunnels stung in the earth / and sought greenstone / gems mined instinctively major / to deserve a reward / blessing of the food / trapped in calcite / beehive gems / I reach and stay with two drops of oil / river to light night / in a bag will go with me to the South Pole / when Halle Absence / the cut I shall / will be your eyes / my fire "(7). Now I know that the poet is so powerful that just by being provided with the power source can make the hero's journey which Campbell tells us, turning a longing in a force field that exceeds the reality of the past in order to change the future of history. In the coordinates of the story on which this fiction is constructed the figure of a child confronted with the turmoil of the jungle by the need to regain the affections of the absent mother. But as the trip progresses, the traveler realizes that there is something deeper and more difficult to resolve in this journey. The greatest revelation was the discovery that to reach the South Pole was not enough to make a trip geographical, but had to walk a spiritual path that aimed to find forgiveness. It is this deep inner perspective of what a poem as Alambique takes place: "Sometimes I think I should carry this grudge against the cold / exorcise the ice / and then pass by the still / decompose / drop by drop dilute / capture the essence / extract / the scent of forgiveness "(8). This empathy for the father's life makes me both will become a person who desperately needs to find forgiveness. I cared to know what had happened in his childhood that caused this catastrophe in your life preventing happiness. Psychoanalysis was not enough because to me the answers were not in the past but in the present. The book could be written only if he could reveal the frustrated dream of my father, but first had to be able to understand this need of mine to make the trip. Nautical Charts The poem illustrates the significance of this trip: "I worked with my grandfather rubber / and fireflies fabricated wax / to enlighten me if they spoke the leaves / when I thought about my trip to the cold / wandering inherited his / her ability to draw charts / tree make instruments serve me / on my journey to forgiveness "(9. ) This would be a soul's journey in search of redemption. This reflection was further when I discovered that this quest culminating in forgiveness. Through the orders of love, the family system is a common awareness that ensures the right of ownership of all its members. That is why I was interested also to study the family constellations of Bert Hellinger who speaks. I found there a way to heal a wound. According to Hellinger, when a human ancestor or suffers a tragic fate was excluded from the family system in the following generations will be produced identifications and systemic implications, ie, a member of the family later moved by the family consciousness and unknowingly represent person who was excluded from the family system itself taken to a destination that does not belong (10). It is through the movements of the soul that we can achieve reconciliation with our past. Hellinger believes that the transgression of the orders of love in human interactions is the origin of the conflicts that mark our family history. Links to our ancestors are still alive and with us significantly over life. Up to us to know where we place in our pantheon interior. The family constellations therapy leads to family problems encountered in the past and helps find ways to resolve these conflicts inherited from previous generations, in the present. Hellinger says that "family constellations and the movements of the soul, complement and condition each other, to allow the light out other interpretations" (11). The soul always shows us the way, but we must trust in the unknown. That is why the poet explores the pain. The reason why links are so strong on his fate. The book assumes the South Pole as a means of expression, the father's voice. This is important because at any moment it becomes clear that another trip is told in the story. But somehow, despite the distance it takes to be a spectator, the link with the child is further narrowed to allow both a trip that would be impossible without the other's existence. In this blend succeed in becoming the same person. Never mind that this story is not true, because this is a reality that manages internal changes in the level of self of the poet. This symbiosis metaphysics can reveal the unconscious of both is happily installed in that truth that envelops both. The psychological process that can take over the personality of another to tell a story, autofiction. Colonna said that "a autofiction is a literary work in which a writer invents a personality and a life, keeping his real identity" (12), but this possession can not be seen only as a catharsis from the point of view of healing . It is more complex. It is a journey of memory in the time it is connected to our ancestral past. This trip is not achieved from the past as with the biographies, they reconstruct a story from a factual historical event. With autofiction, we must make this journey in reverse. We have to start from the future to change the past. The imagination moves from outside to inside and makes changes. In autofiction is not the natural physical time, than it is timeless. Autofiction subpersonalities combined with Assagioli. All this happens in the realm of fiction. Where the narrator disguises. Use one of the sub-personalities to tell their story. In this regard Assagioli wrote that "we are not a unit, we feel that we are, because we have many bodies and many branches, and because one hand does not usually hit the other. But, metaphorically, that is exactly what happens to us. Many sub-personalities are constantly struggling, impulses, desires, principles, aspirations are engaged in a relentless struggle "(13). In a broad sense, all artistic expression is a biographical work come into play in many of our sub-personalities. Piero Ferrucci, the main contributor to Assagioli, wrote that "sub-personalities are psychological satellites, coexisting as a multitude of lives in the middle of our personality. Each sub-personality has a style and self-motivated, often strikingly different from us "(14). If we connect the concept of sub-personality to the distinction between external and internal history Bachelard (15), we see that both are part of a past that has moved forward and now part of the truth of the poet. In the literature, this story happens to occupy the place of the real story and develops its own dynamics without factual evidence to support it. Although it is an invention, it is also an emotional and imaginative reality, because it is a consequence of the ego, but is a product of self expression. I travel around this trip yielded a result. A reflection on death and about forgiveness. The last farewell to a loved one is a projection of our own death: "I met the changing seasons / and prayer that tames the beasts / had that gift / know of fireflies and wood smoke / Why do we travel? / For the singing of the birds did not reach the forgotten / and forgiveness? / a mirage / chimera / river looking for that essence manufacture perfumes / and then to show your power came the eclipse / not want to see the light / that leads you / the body seen from above is a sheet / of your body I have a warning "(16). I feel that with this trip helped to heal my father even though he is no longer on this physical plane. But overall, this memory work has helped place me in the sense of existence, as well as to repair a piece of my past that needed to be woven again. There was an absence. My grandmother was lacking in the emotional picture of the family. Until he got his own voice: "I want the rose that lives in the Polo said the girl. / And I was thinking how to get cold "(17). When my father reunited with her, this distance has been shortened. She is now present, not to judge but to understand it. To be part of a story where the quest for forgiveness is able to transmute anger into love. To summarize, if we want to outline the contents of this exhibition, we mean the following: if we have a story that is attractive because it touches our conscience, but it is the story of another, and thus has narrative gaps that must be filled, we must build an alternate history in which we may be part of the action as subject transforming that story. In my own case, when I met my father's biography, there was a segment of it that I talked about a trip to Antarctica. This element of a frustrated journey became an object of curiosity and made me look into my father's childhood. I realized then that I knew the items were not sufficient to write the book because the truth of this story lay not in the past but in my own dream of that reality. That is why I had to make a projection of this story in the future, the only place where I could participate as a witness. With autofiction, I made a personal interpretation of the events that had happened on a true story, and make a difference to create another story where my father managed to reach the South Pole, as he wished. The question is should I get if I wrote the book I wanted to write or different to that my father had written. I think the book I had in mind could not be written because the dream of my father was strong enough to reveal his own story, allowing me to participate only as a spectator. Each step had to fight my inner censor telling me not to do that, I will not depart from reality. But this, I had to learn to manage pain. Because these memories alive. Each stage of the book was painful. There was a refusal to tell me things I did not know, not wanting to invent, I wanted to live them. The greatest difficulty was to discover the new story that broke with the past and made his way in the future to make a trip that until now had only happened in my father's imagination. That's how a story became an epic. 1. The content of this paper is the development of my paper "autofiction: poeticizing alternative history", which was presented at the First International Conference of Contemporary Venezuelan Literature, organized by the Simon Bolivar University in Caracas, during the days 21,22, and March 23, 2011. 5. Ucronia The difference with factual history is that the latter is based on real facts, check facts and verify hypotheses. 6. The Hero's Journey concept was developed by Joseph Campbell in his book The Hero With a Thousand Faces. Campbell states that behind all the myths there is a unique structure. Also hypothesized that this structure is a journey that develops through cycles that follow a common pattern: separation – initiation
